Wo-bu-nan-guo ='( [Hao ai hao ai ~bendan~... She's L.O.S.T... H.U.R.T... N.U.M.B... She lives in *his* shadow...Everyting bout her is *him*.. She's drowned by her tears... She LurVeS RenFu, 5566, FengQi, ToRo, Shanwei, YiDa.. etc.. ~* DenG Ni Ai Wo~*]

SYLL

SYLL
Originally uploaded by TorN aparT...

omg i noe i look er xin but!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH
he so cuteeeeeeeeee lehs
hahaha
k la dun look too long lata vomit.
gtg bye

.zhilin-luv dreamt at 10:00 PM on Sunday, November 14, 2004

bendan

Bendan
I hate youu
Wo tao yan ni..
U make my life miserable.
N u noe I cant live a day without you.
No u dont.
U still dont know.
Arghh. Forget it.
Maybe I shud let u noe.
But I cant...
='(



.zhilin-luv dreamt at 8:13 PM on Thursday, September 09, 2004

sad

Idiot. You hurt me without you knowing. Isnt this great. Everything is so darned fine to you. While you didnt know that your words have pierced right through my heart last night. "No"..... It's easy to say. The one typing it wont feel anything. But the one reading it would feel the pain. I hate to say this, but... U dont like me... And never will. Great. You shoved the hurting truth right on my face. You idiot. Why must you break my heart and take all my hopes away. In a night's time. I hate you. I wish I could. But I cant. I hate myself. For being me. For loving you. A mistake. I landed myself in the horrible state I am in now. It's all my fault. I wanna give up and get outta this nightmare. Everyday's been hell for me. All these leads to nowhere but greater depression. Ai ni hao nan.. Bu ai ni gen nan.. Friends...... Is all we can ever be? You said it. And I've been thinking over your word again and again. Everytime I think of it. My heart aches once more. Yea. Thank you so much. For reminding me that you just treat me as a friend. And that's all we can ever be. Thanks idiot. For reminding me. For waking me up. For pulling me outta my dream and bringing me back to the cruel reality. Life sucks. You made it suck, you know that my dear? =X Get out of my life please. You've been loved for so long and when would I ever get back a little of my love from ya. No. Zhilin. Wake up. Impossible. Stop living in your dillusion please. Stop yearning for the impossible. You would never understand. That the cause and reason for everything and anything is you. I'm just your friend. Yea. FRIEND. You are the last friend that I would wanna have. There'll never be a fairytale in my life. No happy ending. No prince in white. The princess that I've been dreaming for since young. No. Think I'm better off being Cinderella. Unloved. Alone. Suits me well. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you!!! Doesnt sound the least convincing huh? Shall there be one day, when I ever go mad and just splurt everything out on your face. Would you feel the least touched? At least.. a little? That someone has loved you so much all this while. I hope so. I dont wish to be in love with a hearltess and numb idiot. Maybe I really am. I dont understand you. Just what are you thinking. What am I to you. Ohh. yea. Friends. Nono. I've not forgotten. It marks a wound so deep in my heat that I can never forget. Great. The helpless and dying side of me is completely revealed now. It doesnt show on the outter. But inside, you dont know what lies within. A heart. Broken. Shattered. Torn apart. Bleeding. And left to die. Not exaggerating. I mean it. Goodbye.

.zhilin-luv dreamt at 11:40 AM on

sianZz~

Wheeeeeeee~
Ppl... Rememba to watch Channel U 8pm next Monday hor~~!!
Wahaha... Got FENGQI!!!
Yayyyys. Lolx.. Crazieeeeeee~

Hmmms.. Todae neva go YF... Cuz still sickk.. Hahaa..
Lata's gonna be v sian manz... Haish...
SJ n YZ ask mi go wif dem to Escape tml... Errrs...
HAHA... U all beri farnie lehh.. Whole dae wanna go Escape de... Wahaha.. Nvm.. I oso lyk~
DIAOZ... -__________-" But den hor... Errrs... Hahaa.. NVM.
Yea man.. Lata got WQYL~~ Can see Fufu!!! =)
K larx... Nothing much ler.. C ya~

.zhilin-luv dreamt at 10:50 AM on Tuesday, September 07, 2004

='(

bendan bendan bendan bendan bendan

.zhilin-luv dreamt at 8:58 PM on Monday, September 06, 2004

MY BLOG IS BACK!

Yea man!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~~~ YIPEEEEE!!!
My blog is BACK~!!! Oh my godd... I cant believe I did dis..
I didnt noe dat I had da capability of bringing my blog back to life again!!! I'm a GENIUS~~~
I realli regretted alot after deleting it in a rash...
Cuz I feel dat here too luv-sick n depressed le..
N I scared he will read.. N find out.. Haish...
Dun care le larx.. I shall not do such stoopid tings anymore.. Realli pained mi to delete dis blog lor.. But NVM.. It's BACK!! But mi already created new one le lehh.. Nvm.. I shall blog on both! Cool rite?? Hahaa.. BHB~ Muz rememba to go both n read hor..
Da other one is http://dun-hurt-mi.blogspot.com.. Heex..
YEA~~~~~~~ Sho happie.. I tot dat all my 107 posts wud be juz GONE liddat... N all my memories for da past 3 mths.. N all my hard work n effort.. ='(
Dat was a stoopid mistake.. Haish..
Aniwae ppl.. rememba to link mi da other blog oso k.. Hahaa.. Thanx~~
Feels good to see my most precious n darling bloggY baq!!!
Treasure it even more now mann.. Hahaa.. =) =)
Frm dis.. dere's an important lesson to learn..
And dat is..
We would only learn to treasure the things, after we have lost them..
Yeppz.. It goes da same for bendan.. Muz u wait till da day I gif up before u can learn to understand?
Mmmm.. Since its such a happie occasion.. shall not tok bout him le bahx..
kkz~ Wud update again lata if dere's anyting k.. Bye~~~ *SmiLeXxX*

.zhilin-luv dreamt at 6:25 PM on Sunday, September 05, 2004